Wednesday - October 5, 2011

I am 3 months into new motherhood and its fabulous.  My child refuses to sleep during the day (she is anti-nap) but she does sleep pretty well at night.  Even with her awesome nighttime sleeping skills I still find myself insanely tired which, of course, leaves me pointing fingers at my post-pregnancy trucker food diet.  I have a bit of an ice cream, snack cakes, soft drink, candy you know everything-I-couldn't-eat-with-gestational-diabetes kind of addiction going on.  It’s really a slippery slope for me as I consider myself a complete sugar addict.  If I can get the white stuff out of my diet I believe I would be an all-around better and happier person.  Getting sugar out of my diet is a long-term goal but I'm focused on my short-term goal at the moment, which is finding balance between motherhood, full-time work, healthy eating along with exercise and completely losing all of my baby weight.  I'm only 6 lbs away!!

One thing I feel I am one definitely doing right is breastfeeding.   I do not believe that you are killing your child by not breastfeeding, as I know PLENTY of perfectly healthy formula-fed children.  But I am still extremely proud of my choice and ability to exactly what my body is designed to do.  I stick my chest out like a peacock when people ask what kind of formula I use and I tell them "none, we are a breastfeeding family."  Anyhow one of the benefits, for mom, is that breastfeeding burns an obnoxious amount of calories.  Which also plants the idea in mom's head that she can eat whatever she wants and still lose weight.  So I bought into all that crap and ate like a trucker while I was watching the numbers wind down on my scale and now I'm at a plateau. I'm watching my weight fluctuate between a loss and a gain.  Apparently I've used up all my breastfeeding weight loss voodoo and its time to work on the diet...oh and I should probably exercise too.  Unfortunately rocking my baby and staring at her little sleeping face doesn't burn enough calories to cancel out all the junk food that I've been snacking on.  My final pregnancy weight was 159, my current weight is 130.8 and fluctuates between 129-132…mostly on the 132 side.  My goal is **106-100lbs. All that being said, I decided to give Weight Watchers Online a try.  I was drawn to their plan because it offers support for breastfeeding mothers, while other sites do not.  Losing baby weight is tricky as a breastfeeding mom because it can affect your supply.  I've been told that I need to keep an extra 6-10 lbs while I'm feeding. And every book/web site I've read says the same thing but what if I already had 20 I needed/wanted to lose?  Do I keep those too?  I'm not planning on it.  Another breastfeeding friend of mine has been following the Weight Watchers plan with any negative effects to her milk supply so it sounded perfect.  Weight Watchers accounts for the extra calories that I need to consume when they calculate my points.  That being said I get an OBNOXIOUS amount of points everyday.  I've only been on it for a week and haven't seen a consistent weight loss number yet.  I weigh myself on Monday (have to keep myself in check all weekend) and I log my food everyday.  So far I've managed to blow my points on quite a few days by eating like a trucker.  As I say I am and will always be a work in progress.  My goal for this week is to make a menu for the week and actually start planning.  So what's momma eating this week?  I don't know because I haven't bothered to plan anything out.  I just eat when I'm hungry and that's obviously not going to work.    


**Remember I am less than 5 feet tall so this is healthy for me…feel free to plug my numbers into any BMI calculator online that you can find.  I'm 4'10" and 32 years old. 117-86lbs (depending on which calculator you are using) is considered healthy for me…I'm aiming to be in the middle of that range.  

Friday, July 29, 2011

I'm officially a mom...a breastfeeding mom at that. My daughter, it still feels so weird to say that, is officially a month old today. I still have trouble believing its already been a whole month. She's absolutely the most precious person I've ever met. So back to the subject matter of this blog..what have I been eating? EVERYTHING that I should not. Cokes, root beer, sweet tea, candy, ice cream, anything sweet I can get my hands on. It's really pathetic. The final total on my pregnancy weight gain was 35lbs on top of 20 that I already need to lose. My first goal is drop the 35 lbs of baby weight and then work on the other 20. I'm already down 22 lbs thanks to breastfeeding. Starting this week, now that it's been a month, I have to focus on the next 13 lbs so I can get back into my old work clothes. I've accepted that my tops are probably not going to fit considering how large my breastfeeding equipment is so I've bought a few tops in a larger size recently. Tops are fine and the size of my breastfeeding equipment is fine but buying new 'fat' pants is not acceptable. That's what I'm trying to fit back into, my old 'fat' clothes. This will also be the week I start exercising again. I ended up having a cesarian delivery so I've been waiting for my body to heal enough so that exercising isn't more uncomfortable than it usually is when you start a new routine. I sincerely miss running and I haven't been allowed to running since last October when I found out I was pregnant. It was a precautionary measure since my first pregnancy didn't work out very well. I'm very much looking forward to pounding the pavement again. I love the way it helps me clear my head. Anyhow, I'll post as I can but as anyone with a newborn can tell you, time is awfully precious these days. Truth be told my posts will be sporadic until I return to work. I'll be spending the remainder of my maternity leave rocking ms snuggling with my sweet baby girl. I'm sadly all too well aware that I'll never get these days with her back.

Boredom

Almost everyone I know who is on a diet, attempting to diet, wanting to diet, etc becomes bored with their meals.  Boredom makes it so much easier to justify making bad nutritional choices and if you haven't noticed I'm a master of that mentality.  That's why mu hubby requested that I introduce a few new recipes a month so we don't become so bored with eating the same things week after week.  We've been together 8 years (married 2) this summer and when I think about all the times I've made our "staple meals" week after week its extremely easy to see how and where the boredom started. 

When I met my hubby I was 24 and could barely cook.  I didn't understand what flavors went together, why they were good together even really the concept of "good food."  At that point I was eating just because I was hungry without considering nutritional value or flavor quality.  Of course at my first real job right out of college I went up 2 pants sizes...talk about embarrassing.  Well I held onto those 2 pant sizes until I got pregnant.  Now I'm definitely above those 2 pants sizes and desperately wanting to go back to them as quickly as possible..that's goal #1.  Goal #2 is to eliminate those 2 pant sizes and get back to what I consider my "happy weight."  I'll consider myself at my "happy weight" when I'm not embaressed to wear shorts or just above the knee skirts and dresses out in public.  

Anyhow, I say all that to say that learning to cook for yourself is extremely important.  Everytime I hear anyone, male or female, announce proudly that they don't cook, it makes me very ill for them.  I turn into one of those ranting know-it-alls who lectures the youngin's on the value of cooking, and cleaning - this rant is for another day, for yourself.  Do yourself a favor and spend 5 minutes researching new recipes with flavors that you're curious about.  You have no one else to blame if you are bored with your diet...you have full control over everything you put into your body.  With millions of web sites, cooking blogs, cook books, magazines, tv shows, podcasts (you see where I'm going) there's no excuse not to feel free to experiment!  If you are using a small budget as your excuse then you should take some time to evaluate how much money are you spending on the foods that you don't enjoy and reallocate that money for foods that you do.  My opinion, if you enjoy it and it has nutritional value then its a much better investment since you won't be throwing food, or money away.  Just be reasonable and stay within your grocery budget.  

Some of my favorites:
www.foodnetwork.com
www.allrecipes.com
www.onceamonthmom.com
www.realsimple.com
www.tasteofhome.com

Monday, June 20, 2011 - last days of pregnancy

Truth be told I am sick to death of the diet that I'm eating and with some meals I do fine and others I do not.  Today I was a little over my allotted 2,000 calories and could have remedied that with a walk after work.  Fortunately/unfortunately the nap that I desperately needed won and I slept on the couch for a while before cooking dinner.  I only say unfortunately because I could have really used the exercise.  Anyhow, the day's breakfast was deplorable (remember what I said about not letting yourself get too hungry). I also skipped my morning snack, which I do quite often when I eat breakfast late.  I planned my afternoon snack badly and forgot my cheese stick so all I had was the ice cream. Today, Tuesday, I have my little red lunch bag packed and I'm ready!

Sunday, June 19, 2011 - the final pregnancy days

I'll finally meet my girl at the end of this week...SO EXCITED!!  I spent Saturday cooking a few freezer meals to so we won't starve for the first week or so.  I made 2 meatloafs, spaghetti sauce 4 bags, meatballs to go with the spaghetti sauce, and a chicken dish that we'll probably eat for supper tonight.   My husband and I suck at eating leftovers so its my goal with pretty much every meal produce as little food as possible.  Sometimes I'll leave 1 or 2 portions for lunch the next day depending on the meal.  That being said when I engage in freezer cooking I bag everything into single meal (single meaning enough for both hubby and me) portions. My sister shared this web site with me and its become my new obsession.  www.onceamonthmom.com  I don't subscribe to a particular meal plan.  I basically just read all of the recipes and save/print the ones that I think hubby and I will enjoy.  Like everyone else, we have our staples that we eat every week but I like to throw in a new recipe a few times a month.  This week I cooked a recipe that was clipped from Taste of Home Magazine.  Certainly not the healthiest meal I've made but it was pretty tasty and oddly enough didn't effect my blood sugar at all.

http://www.tasteofhome.com/recipes/RWOP-Finalist--Joy-Bundles-and-Rice

Yesterday's calorie count:
Breakfast notes: My morning coffee (very carefully measured - 2 tbsp of half and half, 3 tsp sugar..I don't use artificial sweetners anymore watch "Sweet Misery" on hulu and you'll question it yourself).  I drink it every morning and it RARELY effects my blood sugar so I keep the carb count the way it is.
"Sweet Misery"   http://www.hulu.com/watch/162709/sweet-misery
warning its an hour and half long so be sure you have time to watch it. 

Lunch notes: Hubby cooked Ruben sandwiches Butter - eek! side note: everything my husband cooks includes butter and I just try not to look to see how much he uses.  He's 6'2" and 180 lbs soaking wet with incredible metabolism, I so hope my daughter gets this in the genetic lottery, so gargantuan amounts of butter don't concern/effect his thigh quite the way they do mine.

Dinner notes: Joy Bundles Recipe with Rice link posted above.  Livestrong.com gives you the option to key in an entire recipe and then tell the counter how much of the recipe you ate.  Its one of their best features.  :)

Random note:  My calorie count according to the diabetic counselor is supposed to around 2,000 a day.  Livestrong won't let me key this in manually so it insists that I am well over my calorie count and that's not actually the case. 

Favorite Foods - LONG POST

As you can read in previous postings I have gestational diabetes which really just means that I'm diabetic in this pregnancy.  I can tell you after months of my assigned diet, sticking my fingers 4 times a day, and tracking my blood sugar obsessively that this isn't the life I want.  Losing the baby weight, and the other 20 lbs) is pretty high on my priority list.  That being said I'll probably stick to a hybrid of the diet I was assigned to help get this weight off.  Just as a reminder, the plan consists of 3 meals and 3 snacks per day.  The combination of foods that are eaten during those times are the key to making it work.  It goes like this breakfast (meal), morning snack, lunch (meal), afternoon snack, dinner (meal), bedtime snack.  Most diabetics do not eat a bedtime snack but gestational diabetics do.  My favorite food combinations are:

Breakfast: (2 oz meat, 2 carbs - NO FRUIT)

• 1 egg, 2 slices of sugar free toast with butter and a reasonable amount of jelly
• 1 thin bagel with ham (1 oz) and cheese (1 oz)
• 1 mozzarella cheese stick (1 oz) with ham (1oz) wrapped around it for my meat and my carb is Dannon Greek Yogurt (Vanilla) with 1/8 c. of my favorite granola

• Fast Food Faves: 
•   McDonald's Egg McMuffin..not the best choice but its lower in carbs than the other options I would prefer to eat.  

Lunch: (3 oz meat, 2 carbs)

• Ham sandwich - 2 slices sugar free bread, reasonable amount of lite mayo, ham (2oz), slice of cheese (1oz), and pickles.  I eat cut up carrots and cucumbers as a side as they are considered a "free" item.
• Carefully measured leftovers from dinner
• Cottage cheese (3 oz) with 30 grapes (equals 2 carbs)
• Garden Salads of any sort, no croutons and beware of creamy dressings, added fruits (those are carbs) and any fried meat (breading = carb) thrown on top.  

• Fast Food Faves: 
• Wendy's Ceaser Salad, small chicken nuggets with bbq sauce (this is a little indulgent in the carb department so I don't eat it often). 

• Restaurant Faves: 
• The Grill's Black and Blue Salad, minus the blue (not a fan) with wine and cheese dressing.  I never use a full serving of dressing because its a creamy dressing and that equals extra carbs.  
• Zaxby's Chicken Zalad - opt for the grilled chicken and avoid the huge chunk of texas toast and the croutons.  
• Veggies plates and carefully calculated blue plate specials from various local sources..just watch all the extra salt and fat added to them 

 * notice the trend with all the salads when eating out...its really the only way I can eat out with such strict limitations on my carb consumption.

Dinner: (3 oz meat, 3 carbs)

• Chicken stir-fry that we make at home
• Caprese Salad with 2 oz of spaghetti and my homemade spaghetti sauce
• Homemade BLTs with ham, sugar-free bread and lite mayo
• Various baked chicken dishes with a veggie and rice, potatoes, fruit, whatever carb I have on hand.   A personal fave is half of a chicken breast pounded out flat and rolled up with a slice of ham and swiss cheese.  
• An artichoke stuffed pork tenderloin recipe that I found on http://diabeticgourmet.com/ with a veggie and a carb side.  
• Any of the fast food or restaurant faves

Daytime Snacks: (1 oz meat, 2 carbs)

• 1 mozzarella cheese stick and yogurt with granola
• 1 tbsp peanut butter with 1 apple
• 1 tbsp peanut butter with 1 banana
• 1 mozzarella stick and a plain vanilla ice cream cone from Sonic ** discovered this in the last few weeks.  The web site claims that the plain vanilla ice cream cone only has 30 carbs!! 
• 1 mozzarella stick and a granola bar
• 0.25 c. cottage cheese with 30 grapes or 1 c. strawberries
• mozzarella stick and fruit of choice
• sliced cheddar and 30 g worth of crackers or fruit of choice

*Guess which item I'm not going to be eating a lot of anymore.  The mozzarella cheese sticks will go on my "I Just Can't Eat Them Anymore List" next to Ramen Noodles, Hamburger Helper, and Easy Mac that I abandoned after college.  Hopefully they won't be there permanently but for right now the thought of another cheese stick kind of makes me gag. 

Bedtime Snack (2 carbs - NO FRUIT)

• 8 oz milk and a granola bar
• 8 oz milk and 6 vanilla wafers
• Dannon Greek Vanilla yogurt with 1/8 c. of granola 

My biggest lessons from this diet plan:

• Small portions are really all you need - Your stomach really is only as big as your fist and you don't need to overfill it to be satisfied.  If a pregnant lady can curb her eating then I'm convinced anyone can.  
• Do not let yourself get too hungry because you WILL make a bad nutritional choice and that's not good for you or your child or anyone for that matter.
• Motherhood means sacrifice and you'll do anything to ensure that your child is healthy..including giving up a life-long sugar addiction.  
• Sugar and fatty foods are a luxury not a need.  You're body doesn't NEED any of that stuff to survive, even though your brain will attempt to convince you otherwise.
• Going for a walk after a bad nutritional choice will always make you feel better and can even drop your blood sugar up to 30 points.  Just do yourself a favor and walk at least 30 minutes a day and you'll always feel better even if your blood sugar isn't out of whack. 

Foods I'm really looking forward to eating again..in moderation of course ;)

• CEREAL!!  I've missed it so much
• FRUIT!!
• Dessert of any sort..I have a ferocious craving for a double stuffed oreo blast from sonic.
• Half and half sweet tea
• Pretty much anything that is guaranteed to help me retain the weight I need to lose after baby.  I'm planning to eat my favorite foods again in moderation and am really just looking forward to the satisfaction of knowing that  I can have them whenever I want them again. 

Back Again..Hopefully for Good this Time

Someone reminded me today that I need to start blogging again so I'm back until my newborn takes me away again in a few days.  I am 38 weeks pregnant, 32 pounds gained (more than I wanted but still great considering), and growing more and more anxious to meet my baby girl.  My doctor says that my blood sugar readings look great, my blood pressure looks great, he's happy with my weight gain and my baby's growth.  Because of my gestational diabetes diagnosis he is absolutely going to induce me a little early and says that's 100% the only reason he's doing it.  If I didn't have this one complication then he would let me go until she came on her own or I went past my due date.  My only job currently is to be strict about my diet so baby girl doesn't gain too much weight in the next 6 days. 

Here's a peek at how I'm looking so far.  The first picture is from my wedding in June of 2009 and the second from today (June 2011).  In all fairness I didn't want to use a 2010 pic because I was pregnant last summer (almost through the first trimester at this point) and subsequently miscarried (sucked in the worst way but its okay I can talk about it fairly easily now) so it wouldn't be a fair comparison.  Not to mention I just felt beautiful and thin on my wedding day and who doesn't love a good wedding picture?  Oh and don't mention to my super private hubby that his pic is posted on my blog.  I just thought it would look stupid if you couldn't see the whole pic and my photographer's wordmark really needs to be present. 

Sharing

Just a link to a blog post that I read today that kind of hit home with me.  I'm in the middle of the "OMG we're about to have a baby and our finances will change COMPLETELY" freak-out that every first time parent experiences.  I've given up on winning the lottery, hubby or myself getting a massive raise at work, and some unknown relative dying and leaving us a gazillion dollars.  I've accepted the fact that like everyone else I'm just going to have to put my big girl panties on and stop spending irresponsibly.  I would like to brag though that as of October this past year I have no credit card debt and I'm EXTREMELY proud of that fact.  Now if I can just convince myself that I don't actually need a smartphone....

http://www.thesimpledollar.com/2011/04/11/live-like-no-one-else-so-you-can-live-like-no-one-else/

Monday, April 11, 2011

I've decided after much thought that I'm going to use a different format to show what I'm eating.  I have my diagnosis, my meal plan (2000 calories..omg!) and I've pretty much nailed down my new routine.  Sacrifice is the name of the game and I'm here to tell you that it isn't easy but its so worth it in the end.  My bright side is that I'll be in this routine for the next 3 months (grumble) BUT that will give me time to establish new eating habits that will hopefully help lose my baby weight and the weight I already wanted to lose.

The plan goes like this:

• Fasting blood sugar test
• Breakfast 1 meat (2oz), 2 carbs (no fruit and milk because of its lactose is a carb), and 1 fat
• 2 hours after Breakfast test blood sugar
• Morning snack - 1 meat (2 oz) and 2 carbs 
• Lunch - 1 meat (2 oz), 2 carbs, 1 fat
• 2 hours after Lunch test blood sugar
• Afternoon Snack - 1 meat (2oz) and 2 carbs
• Dinner - 1 meat (3oz), 3 carbs and 1 fat
• 2 hours after Dinner test blood sugar
• Bedtime snack - 2 carbs

In terms of food that looks like this:

• Breakfast: 1 scrambled egg (meat), 1 slice of toast (carb) with butter (fat) and a tsp of jelly (my cheat) and 8 oz 1% milk (carb).
• Morning Snack: 1/4 c. cottage cheese (meat) and 30 grapes (2 carbs)
• Lunch: Sandwich=1 oz ham, 1 oz cheese (2 oz meat), 2 slices of whole grain bread (2 carbs) and lite mayo (1fat).  Veggies like carrots, cucumbers, tomatoes, etc are considered "free items" so I usually a few oz of those as a side.  
• Afternoon snack: Greek yogurt and a cheese stick
• Dinner: chicken breast (3oz meat) , rice and/or veggies of some sort (as long as it equals out to 3 carbs).  Veggies can get a little dicey since some are considered starchs which equal carbs.  Think potatoes, corn, many kinds of beans...just think about the texture of the food when you chew it and you can guess whether or not its a starch.  
• Bedtime snack: 6 vanilla wafers and 8 oz of 1% milk
• I drink water all day and either hot tea (no sugar) or unsweetened iced tea with all my meals
• Seriously sugary items are an absolute no-no :(

I don't eat the same thing everyday so I will be posting different menus starting tomorrow and maybe even sharing some recipes that I've found.  The hardest part about all of this is actually thinking about what I'm eating and controlling the portion size.  I'm considering this a really great challenge since I only get to eat a certain amount of food in every meal.  A benefit that I'm already seeing is that I'm not at all swollen anymore and during lunch today my sister actually told me that I'm starting to look slimmer, minus my growing belly.  :)    

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Okay I've been away too long.  I said this was going to be a daily blog update and I'm missing about a week a half already.  Here's the deal.  I went to my last doctor's appointment to do my first glucose test and it came back high.  So I went back to my doctor to do the 3-hour glucose test and WHAM! it came back high too.  Last Tuesday I went to visit a diabetes counselor and have been learning to eat differently and getting used to testing my blood sugar 4 times a day.  If I ever complained about pregnancy being long or hard then I was just being a big wienie, because now I have to stick myself 4 times a day, very seriously plan out all 6 of my meals and stick to a diet that I'm not 100% familiar with yet.  I know there are worse things but pregnant ladies LOVE food and the ones that I LOVE are off limits now. :(

So I went back to the doctor today and he likes the way my blood sugar reading have been looking.  He's allowing me to go from 4 sticks a day to only 2, although I can continue with the 4 if it makes me more comfortable.  I'm just neurotic enough to probably continue with the 4 sticks for a while longer so I probably will.  Anyhow, tomorrow I'll start back with my "Whatcha Eating?" posts...I know you're all curious.  The diet isn't hard its just that I actually have to stop and think about what I'm putting in my body and how often I do it.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011 - The Eye Opener

So this morning I had a doctor's appointment and I WAS really excited about it.  I'm 25.5 weeks and it was time to do the dreaded glucose screening test, BUT I was going to get to hear my sweet girl's heartbeat so that made it better.  I FAILED the glucose screening.  My blood sugar was 171!!!!  Talk about scary.  So I'm going back on Thursday morning to do the 3-hour Glucose Test.  I am not excited about it and now that I've had time to reflect on the test and my diet I'm really worried.  I'm not worried about not getting to enjoy yummy foods for the rest of my pregnancy.  I'm not worried about learning the diabetic exchange system.  Or even the fact that regulating my diet might not work and I might have to take shots for the rest of the pregnancy.  I'm worried about my baby girl and how hard it might be to find the right combination of things to regulate my blood glucose.  My faulty blood glucose can really mess things up for her...talk about Mommy-guilt at its fullest.  Check out this link if you just want an overview of possible complications  http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/gestational-diabetes/DS00316/DSECTION=complications   This is one of those things that is completely out of my control at the moment and that scares me.  I do know that it is very common for women to have this condition during pregnancy, doctors have no idea what actually causes it, and every case that I've ever known has been easily controlled through diet.  My doctor's advice...eat normally (seriously if he read my food diary I can't say he would advise that) until Wednesday night, fast overnight, be here at 8 am to start the 3-hour test.  Personally I think the MCAT (medical school entrance exam) would be less intimidating at the moment.  So just think about me on Thursday morning.  I'll be hanging out in the doctor's office waiting room hoping/praying for a negative test.   Either way it goes expect some large dietary changes in the coming weeks..I think this was the boost of fear motivation that I needed to clean up my act.     

Monday, March 21, 2011

Not too bad for a Monday..especially with such a nutritionally horrible weekend.  Around lunch time I strolled around campus with a coworker interviewing students about spring break.  It made me insanely jealous because I NEVER went anywhere for Spring Break.  I was always too broke and would take the opportunity to work the full week.  I should have taken that as a sign of what was coming in my future.  My poor money management skills in my 20s are killing me in my 30s.  Student loans and bad car deals are my biggest pain in the tail.  I DID manage to get rid of every credit card bill I had a few months ago.  I currently am taking the stance that I do not believe in credit cards and if I can't buy it with cash or my debit card then I obviously can't afford it/don't need it.  That being said I also find myself becoming increasingly pickier about my purchases.  I don't mind paying for clothes or shoes that I know I can wear for more than a year.  FYI you can't wear maternity clothes very long and I consider them to be a HUGE RIP-OFF but that's a rant for another day.  Also for another day..budgeting is way harder than it looks and sometimes it really sucks to be a grown-up. 

March 19-20, 2011...OH THE SHAME

I'm not even sure where to start.  I did mention that this past weekend was one of the most relaxing I've had in a long time.  I never left the town I live in..I barely even left the house.  On Saturday night we went over to our couple friend's house for "A Fryin" as hubby kept calling it.  It was all planned out and we KNEW that we were only eating fried foods that night.  IT WAS DELICIOUS! My only contribution to the meal were the lemon cupcakes.  I have a Babycakes Cupcake Maker those literally took about a half hour even with the prep time.  I spent the rest of the night sitting on my tail, sipping on water with lemon, watching the boys do all the cooking.  :)

On Sunday the hubby and I decided that we needed to have something healthier for breakfast since we had eaten so badly the night before.  We had oatmeal and then ate leftover for lunch...yeah talk about not doing much to help ourselves out.  We spent the rest of the day doing little things around the house, napping and watching tv.  Weirdly somehow I managed to find the perfect combination for my poor swelling ankles.  By the end of the day they were almost the pre-pregnancy ankles that I remembered.  So as badly as I ate all weekend I can say that I started off my work week completely relaxed and rested.  I'm ashamed of the way I ate but actually proud of finding the relaxation balance that I was lacking. 

Friday, March 18, 2011

I took off Friday afternoon and went home to start my weekend early.  It was the beginning of one of the most relaxing weekends I've had in a long time.  :)

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Since I'm posting this so late I'm not even going to bother to comment yet. 

Oh the shame...

I have not abandoned my blog..I just didn't have time to post the entire weekend today.  It will be up tomorrow.  Let me just say that the weekend was shameful enough that I considered not posting it.  Then I thought "No, this is what I'm here for."  So all the awful food diary details will show up tomorrow at some point.  I have a dr appt in the morning...gonna hear my baby girl's heartbeat again :) and have the yucky glucose test.  Hoping, wishing, and praying that it comes out normal and I can just continue my pregnancy in piece. 

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

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The journey to anything in life starts with a single step and unfortunately that's often the hardest step to take.  Starting and maintaining this blog is the first step for me in admitting that my behavior is unacceptable.  I started off my day pretty well and was actually very proud of it until about 3:30 when a coworker mentioned this would be a perfect afternoon to go out and get ice cream.  I cannot blame my friend because it IS A PERFECT day for ice cream...but aren't they all?  If you haven't noticed I have no problem justifying anything as a good reason to consume the foods that I love most.  Sometimes its a treat for a good deed, sometimes a bad day, sometimes its just because the sun is shining, or my favorite lately has been that the baby wants <insert food of choice here>...yeah.  My coworker has no idea I'm keeping this food diary or blog. She would be extremely supportive if I fessed up and told her about it.  I had every opportunity to say no and eat my beautifully planned, nutritious snack.  I even opened the refrigerator and had it in my hand when she suggested it.  Sadly, I pulled the fridge door open again and happily declared that I would just eat if for breakfast in the morning!  And off we went and the ice cream was FABULOUS and PERFECT until I came in an typed it into my food diary.  Then the big flashing MISTAKE!! DANGER!! YOU MORON!!  signs started flashing in my mind.  So here I am wanting to take a day of rest from my exercise and now I can't because I HAD to have that ice cream.  I was just going to go home, cook a little dinner for myself (hubby is working late) and work on some home projects that have been bugging me.  Don't get me wrong..I do enjoy my new found favorite swimming exercises.  But now I've backed myself into the "I have to do it corner today" and that's not the corner I wanted to stand in this afternoon.  I should also say that I'm not against consuming my favorite treats in moderation. In this case I should have planned a little better knowing that I wanted to use today as an exercise break.      


Diet Observation:  Good job up until the afternoon snack and then good recovery with dinner...and seriously I still stayed under the calorie goal even with the mac and cheese..SHOCKING! Committing to some sort of activity daily DOES make me feel better and I've already noticed a pretty significant increase in my energy level at the end of the day.  Unfortunately, I did notice that all the ice cream I ate made me sluggish all the way through my workout.  I found myself watching the clock and and not working as hard at times. Tomorrow I'll be focusing on balancing out my nutrient levels as they are pretty skewed right now.  Fat, sugar and sodium are obviously problem areas for me, and yes I know those are the very ingredients that make food taste so delectable.  I don't want to remove them from my diet.  I just want to consume manageable amounts.  I mean seriously this really isn't about me anymore..my baby girl is getting all this stuff too.     

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

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I went home and pondered a healthy food relationship for my child and what I can do about that. My only conclusion is that I must a healthy relationship with food myself before I can teach her anything. So what's my plan? I think I'm off to a good start with my tracking on livestrong.com and with the public humiliation that I'm putting myself through posting my food diary daily. Seriously tarring and feathering myself and marching through the middle of town might be less humiliating than admitting to anyone exactly how horrendous my diet really is. But just like everything else in life this is about making choices. I can choose to remain ignorant about the damage I'm doing to my child, and ultimately to myself, with such unhealthy eating habits. Or I can choose to educate myself, hold myself accountable, make a workable plan and move forward. I'm choosing the latter. I don't want to spend her entire life on a diet and having her listen to me complain about fighting what seems like a losing battle. She's going to have problems, everyone does, and I sincerely hope that her questions about own her self-worth and self-esteem are not tied very closely to her weight. I don't want to be the primary example/source of her conflict with food and weight. Secretly I hope she has her Daddy's long legs and super-fast metabolism and that she never fights this battle.

Diet Observation: I'm actually kind of proud of my food diary today. It looks remarkably better than the previous ones. I planned my breakfast. I knew that I was going to lunch at the sushi bar today and planned accordingly. A coworker mentioned something about an omelet during lunch and BAM! my dinner plan was born. I also added an extra half hour of swimming today since I felt so amazing yesterday. I consider it a bonus that swimming burns just over 10 calories per minute. It might also appear that I didn't eat enough today because I'm so far under my allotted calories..I never felt deprived. I ate when I was hungry, drank lots of water in between, and stopped eating when I was satisfied. Plus considering I've eaten almost 3,000 calories a day for the past few days I'm thinking that baby girl and I are just fine. Now if I can just manage to get my sodium under control then I might actually be on the verge of a workable plan.

Diet trick I'm trying: Measurements..I'm trying to get into the habit of measuring my food. I think a lot of people completely underestimate the amount of food they eat..I know I do. When I set up my food diary for Sunday I pulled out my trusty digital food scale set the plate on it and proceeded to load it up with the recommended 2 oz serving. OMG! Have you ever seen a 2 oz serving of spaghetti? Its TINY. I'm very sure that it could efficiently feed a small child but I don't know an adult who could possibly feel satiated after consuming that amount of spaghetti. So I loaded my plate with the serving I wanted and it was a whole whopping 6 oz. Honestly, I was being modest with those 6 oz. All that being said, I'm huge fan of measuring food portions that I'm unsure about. These are my best weight loss tools (digital food scale, measuring spoons, measuring cups and my trusty water bottle), aside from my livestrong.com food diary.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Its Spring Break here at the university, meaning that its quiet, most of the staff has taken off and our usually overcrowded parking lot is almost empty. As a staff member I LOVE school breaks, even though I usually still have to be at work. In celebration I decided that I would eat that wonderful Butterfinger Sonic Blast that I've been dreaming about for 3 days. Of course, it and the cheese tots completely crashed any hope of a good dietary day. It was sure good while it lasted though. Obviously I'm going to have to do a little thing called 'planning' for the rest of the week to keep from having to post such embarrassing food diaries. Geez, I'm an adult why can't I manage to eat like one? The thing that I am proud of for today is that I did actually make time to go to the gym and swim for 30 minutes. I'll be repeating that tomorrow for a longer period of time. I REALLY enjoyed it.

Diet Observation: Its been weighing really heavy on my mind that my unborn child is also consuming all of this garbage. If she was sitting right next to me in her high chair I can't say that I would be feeding her a Lucky Charms for lunch, followed by a Sonic Blast and Cheese Tots covered in ketchup. I want my baby to eat and enjoy healthy foods. I'm embarrassed to say that as the sole provider of her nutrition, at the moment, I'm failing miserably. I might as well be putting her to bed with soda or sweet tea in her bottle. That also brings up the question, as a mom, how do you help foster a healthy relationship with food for your child?

Sunday, March 13, 2011

I actually got up and did housework, watched the hubby slave away with yard work (wow he was a busy guy!) and then had to work a mid-afternoon ball game. It was actually a nice relaxing Sunday, even with work in the middle. I came home cooked dinner, cleaned up and went to bed early. As excited as I am to meet my baby girl I'm not really ready to let go of my clean, quiet house just yet. I think I'm going to miss these easy Sundays, or maybe easy Sunday will take on an even better meaning..who knows?

Diet observation: OMG! What did I do this weekend? I feel like a college student who drank for 2 days and can't remember what she did or who she saw. Apparently I still think I weight 100 lbs and have my 18 yro metabolism.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

My sister and I have long been fans of having Saturday morning breakfast together. We usually go to either a local donut shop or a local bagel shop to sit, eat, drink coffee, and enjoy good conversation. Usually we go "rambling" around town afterwards and see too all the goodies the local shops are offering. We rarely buy anything but we always find neat things that would look amazing in our houses. This Saturday instead of rambling we opted to take her 2 dogs for a really long walk. She has a Lab and a Weimaraner that both LOVE to play. She lives close to the local college campus so we walked around campus and ended the journey at the on-campus lake. The dogs LOVED IT! We let them off their leashes to run, fetch and play in the lake. They were so excited and fun to watch. Jake, the Lab, jumped in the lake every time he thought about it and June refused. She has to be the prissiest dog I've ever met. Despite being a dog, she's not at all a fan of getting dirty. Anyhow the day was beautiful and perfect for a long walk and I can't wait to go again.

As I said in my Friday post, I worked baseball this weekend. I was supposed to work Saturday and Sunday too but something magical happened on Saturday night. We had too many people on the crew! Of course, that meant that someone needed to go home and I JUMPED at the chance. Let me preface this by saying that I do get paid extra money to work these games and that the crew is chosen from a pool of staff members who are voluntarily working and when staff members are unable fill the crew then student workers are the next option. So that being said, one of our lowly paid student workers was about to get the boot for the evening. I seriously wanted to go home so I ran up to the poor guy and asked if he wanted to work my position. I could see another staff member lurking close by so I HAD to jump in there FAST! And I won!! The student worker took me up on my offer and I got to go home and hang out with the hubby. Albeit, no extra money for me but I really wanted to spend some much needed time with the hubby. We only have 16 more weeks of a nice, quiet house to enjoy unless baby girl decides to come early.

Diet observation: hanging my head in shame..WOW is all I can say. I have no excuse and it sucks.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Friday I worked all day and then had to work at a baseball game that night. Working baseball for me basically means that I sit on my tail, doing light computer work and watching a computer monitor for 3-3.5 hours. The games are 2.5-3 hours but I have to be in my seat feeding the director content 30 minutes (sometimes earlier) before game time. I work on the video crew that runs everything on the big board (jumbotron as most call it) at an SEC University. The job sounds way cooler than it is and in my 5th year of doing it I can honestly say that the "new car smell" has officially worn off. While everyone else is enjoying the sunshine, atmosphere and choice adult beverages, the video crew is in a dark basement room watching TV monitors and communicating to the outside world via headset, without sunshine and adult beverages and don't get me started on the atmosphere. I'll nicely say that it is extremely stressful during certain parts of the year and during others it is actually not all that bad. I am not alone in this crew, at any given game there could be 10-20 of us plugging away together. During football season we're locked behind a gate that has bars very similar to the ones that barricade zoo animals into their cages. When you walk by you can see several of us standing outside the door to Control Room trying to look all snobby with our All Access badges silently wishing we were outside the fence enjoying the day like everyone else. Somedays I think we're just as bad as the zoo animals because I swear if the gate opened and we were given access to freedom then we would all run and take advantage of all the spoils that await.

Anyhow, the diet....can anyone guess why I've put on 25lbs in 24 weeks of pregnancy? Just wait until you see the rest of the gory details from this weekend. Let's just say that someone (ME!!) needs to learn some serious self control and I'm so not proud of it.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

So obviously my posts will have to be a day behind. I go to sleep with the chickens nightly so posting before bed is probably not going to work really well for me. Gotta take advantage of all the sleep I can before baby gets here in a few months. :)

Details you should know as far as my calorie consumption is concerned. I am only 4'10" and I started this pregnancy with about 20 lbs of extra weight. My husband and I are keeping a record of belly measurements and I'm also tracking my weight. We take measurements every Friday. I'm currently 24 weeks pregnant and I've gained 25 lbs already. Am I sure about the 25 lbs? Yes, I'm very sure because I've been weighing myself weekly and unfortunately neither my scale or my calculator are good at lies. Am I proud of them? Not at all. I have 16 weeks left until my due date and I'm 100% that I don't have much of a choice about adding to those 25 lbs but I would like to do is minimize the damage. I can't give up eating obviously but I can definitely make some better choices (real vegetables would be a good start). I'm also having quite a lot of trouble with swelling in my ankles and hands. There's not much mystery as to why that is happening when you view my sodium consumption and the fact that I did absolutely no exercise yesterday. :( I wish I could say yesterday was a fluke but its probably a lot more accurate than I'd like to ever admit.

To view my food diary just right click on the image to the left and open it in a new link. I'm using screen captures from my www.livestrong.com food diary. I highly recommend their free MyPlate tracker. They have a pretty extensive data base, options to add your own recipes, and I really dig the simplicity of the layout. They also have mobile applications for those of us who need it on the go.

Introducing...ME

In an effort to hold myself accountable for all the weight I'm gaining in pregnancy and that I WILL LOSE after pregnancy. You read correctly, I WILL LOSE this weight. I thought it might be best to start a blog that I update daily with all things concerning my weight gain and subsequent loss. I chose the name "Hey Momma! Whatcha Eating?" from my own childhood. I grew up the oldest of four children (with 23 first cousins but that's a different story) and it seemed like my poor momma was never able to eat or drink anything without one of us drooling in it. I'm still not 100% sure she gets to completely eat a warm meal all by herself.

Who am I? My name is Sara, I'm 32 and happily married with my first child on the way. I work as a graphic designer at a university in the south. I wish I could say that I love my job but that's a lie. I've gained somewhere in the neighborhood of 15 lbs after I graduated and found myself chained to a desk chair. I personally think I would be happier in a job that required me to be on the move constantly, but of course the grass is always greener, right? If I continue the path I'm currently on then there is absolutely no way this baby weight is going to leave my body. I'm at work sitting on my butt from 8am-5pm with a 1 hour lunch break in the middle. Right now walking to the bathroom is absolutely my most frequent exercise of each day. Lucky for me pregnant ladies ALWAYS have to go. So anyway, this is who I am and why I'm here. Consider this my acknowledgement/awareness of how unhappy I'm going to be once I cannot blame this extra weight on my sweet growing baby.