Tomorrow is the last day of February 2013. I just happened to think I might need to go back to blogging about my weight loss since I've been on this journey FOREVER. I'm down to the last 15 lbs and those are usually the hardest. So here I am...again and I'm putting it all out there to give myself some accountability. Here are a few answers to questions about has happened since my last post in October 2011.
I'm fluctuating between 119-117 which is in my "healthy" range but still not my goal weigh of 105. I want to wear a bikini this summer and actually feel comfortable wearing shorts.
My health has scared the crap out of me twice in the last 3 months. Seriously, I think I aged like 5 years during the process. I've had a colonoscope that thankfully came back clean with a recommendation to have the next one at age 50. Then within the same month my doctor found a lump in my right breast. So I had a mammogram and and ultrasound both came back negative so we decided to just wait and follow-up in January. I knew the lump was bigger before he even did the exam and confirmed it. So we decided on a lumpectomy to get a tissue diagnosis. Thank goodness the pathology report came back clean. The surgeon declared that it was just a mass and that I need to keep up with my monthly breast exams and my yearly OB/GYN check-ups. I'm completely on board with that and I've been telling all my friends and family to be sure they keep up with theirs too.
My child is now 20 months old. She's amazing and I still think becoming a mother is one of the best things that has and will ever happen to me. I would like to do it again...soon. Hubby doesn't agree just yet so I'm just dropping hints (okay, they aren't exactly hints..more like vibrant neon signs) but he'll get on board eventually. He LOVES being a Daddy.
My New Year's resolution this year is to be nicer to myself. Meaning that everyday I do SOMETHING for myself. For example, last night after I put baby girl to bed I made myself ignore all the chores in my house so I could sit on the couch and relax for an hour. Granted during that hour I played on my phone, read Facebook and Twitter, watched Big Bang Theory (my fave!), ate the last of my Girl Scout cookies (Samoas..yum) and drank a cup of milk. Nutritionally...shame on me because that was a LOT of calories. Stress relief...yay for sitting on the couch for an hour and relaxing because I really needed that time. Gotta work on balance...high calorie snacks = no!, relaxing = yay!
The only "exercise" I'm making any time for right now is housework and chasing my toddler. That's a goal for March. I want to start running again because I miss it. I have never been consistent with my running so my mileage and endurance suck but that's not why I run. I run because it physically wears me out. I run because I love to turn my music up really loud and push myself to do something that is uncomfortable and out of the scope of normal things I do during my day. It also provides me the greatest amount of stress relief. I really, really miss it.
I'm still working full time and LOTS of overtime. I've been in survival mode for weeks. My menu planning consists of whatever recipes I can remember in the grocery store followed by our staples of pesto and pasta, grilled cheese and soup, baked meat and veggies..seriously I should be embarrassed.
I am now completely obsessed with time management. I even have a whole notebook completely dedicated to this task. It has more chores list, menu planning, budget, bills, everything and I'm lost without it. My daily goals are to cook dinner, clean up dinner, wash the dishes, wash the baby and get her to bed before 8 pm. After she goes down then I complete any other chores that can't be put off and/or hang out with the hubby.
I'll log my calories throughout today and start posting them again tomorrow.